The Waiting Game

This waiting process is so interesting. It doesn't equate to a pregnancy, believe it or not, it is much more difficult. One reason--you don't have the comfort of the child physically growning in you. And, just as important, you don't have a "due date." Your child grows in your heart, your mind races and wonders of the possibilities, and you have NO EARTHLY idea how long it is gonna take.

I remember before I had WB, I would see friends "meltdown" in late pregnancy. I could almost see it coming. I'd say things like, "I'll never do that. How hard can it be? It is just a couple more weeks. Why are they crying?" Funny how you end up "eating words." Two weeks before delivery, I vividly remember sitting in my doctor's office, bawling, and asking to be induced. It is embarrassing to admit, but when my doctor said "no" to the induction, I actually begged for antidrepessants because I just "could note take one more second" of pregnancy!

I'm not making the same mistake with adoption. While I don't fully understand of the stress at the end. I have a healthy appreciation for it. Just as I know a referral will eventually come, I know the waiting "stress" will also come. I truly feel for those in all stages of the process--it is so different for everyone. For me, for now, I'm dealing...but then, I've got WB.

And, today is a good day--two little boys and one baby girl were referred, travel and G&R schedules were finalized, and heart warming pictures of families spending their first few days together flew across the internet! It gives me hope...life is good.

Peace--